“4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade
itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is
not provoked, thinks no evil; 6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the
truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all
things, endures all things. (1 Corinthians 13:4-7)”
Forgiveness starts with me and this I know and I
believe
The words I have spoken generated pain,
Through the harshness or brutality in which it was
unleashed
I had to sit back after releasing this venom
The poison in my veins seemed to leave me stained-
lost- maybe even confused,
As to how I became this way and the source of this
sting
I realized that it began with me
And it is from within me, in allowing the filth of the
atmosphere to be breathed into the very breath of my lungs
And it is with all that I have and am I ask for your
forgiveness
For the times when I know I could have spoken to you
better
Soothingly, as if cooing to a babe- speaking in love
so that the point could be drawn
To the point where the words no longer hurt, instead
they are enveloped in love
Did I know better? Yes I did!
But I allowed the fears of failure, the pillars of
my selfish pride and the unabashed glories of frustration grip my soul
And all I seemed to do was scream; when all I really
wanted to do was to make you see
(That) All that I long to do or say is to ensure
that you- my family- are safe from harm
Where all chains of brokenness and callousness and
destroyed
And the hand of God can soar in the unthinkable way
as only He can work
Instead I became like the beast himself…
Forgive me, for I lacked patience in understanding
that I was made to endure and preach Christ to you, through every possible avenue
Forgive me for I allowed my actions to deflect His
and my character to permit you to question His work in me- in us
Forgive me Lord even more, for never intended to
divert your people’s hope in you into that of the world
It is on this day I ask for utmost restoration and
forgiveness
Teach me to love selflessly and unconditionally like
Christ Your Son, my Savior
All the while understanding that I too am still your
child and I ought to speak to Your children- my brothers and my sisters- in
utmost respect, love and understanding
Teach me to have Your eyes and ears and to speak
ONLY with Your mouth
Teach me to walk in all of Your precepts and ways
from this day onward
Though I may fail, may I be quick to realign my path
to Your Holy Way
Most importantly teach me to walk according to Your
will, with Your character and armor girding me like a shield from the frivolous
attacks of the spiritual dark forces
But to you I say again;
Please forgive me for I have acted insecurely
towards you
Please forgive me for I spoke not with His love
breathing through the words
Forgive me… for being human is no excuse to hurt
you.
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